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Melting (or, why Nanowrimo is kicking my butt)
Nanowrimo total, as of yesterday: just a smidge over 9,000 words.
It’s humid today, which seems to be the weather pattern that really kicks my butt at the moment. As a result, I’m finding it very difficult to actually focus on getting any writing done.
I’m also beginning to think that Nanowrimo is a goal that’s not going to be met for me this year. It’s not even a matter of whether I can get 50k written in a month. Hell, I could sit down and spend a couple of solid days just churning out rubbish to make word count.
The thing is that I don’t want to churn out rubbish. I’m enjoying exploring a new fictional world, but it feels like I haven’t developed enough of the world itself to be able to write anything that’s going to be of any use. I just don’t see the point in churning out words that I’m going to toss in a few month’s time.
And yes, I’m aware that this is the same discussion I’ve been having with myself about whether to do Nanowrimo or not in the first place. I think it can be a very fine thing – it’s a good way to generate a zero draft of part of a novel. It’s a good way to just play with words, to see if you can write 50k words in a month. I’ve “won” it twice before, so I know I can do that.
But is doing it just because I can a good enough reason? Yes, I want to write this draft, but I also want it to be a useful draft.
I might keep on pushing forward. This might just have to be a lost day of writing.
But I might just pull back a little, spend some more time working on building the foundation of this novel.
Mirrored from Stephanie Gunn.
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Pretty much everything I do, I want to have value and use. I don't remember the last time I did something just because I enjoyed it, without actually wanting it to be productive and useful. Maybe it's high time that I did something about that.
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I was hoping to do Nano this year to remind myself that it's not all work, it can be fun too. Unfortunately, I just don't have the strength to add it to my list of current necessities.
:-)
But going for a long time without fun is far, far too easy to do. When Baby comes, you're going to be so very busy. There's amazing, amazing rewards, but you won't be able to have fun in quite the same way.
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